Suspense...

Hello to all from la-la land...where you feel like you really don't know what in the world is going on. Allow me to explain.

Treatment #2 (which was delayed 2 weeks due to the severity of side affects from treatment #1) was supposed to happen Monday of this week. Went in, did my labs, got hooked up to begin and suddenly "STOP" was the word from a nurse. Seems that my labs indicated something going haywire with my liver enzymes. Upper end of the normal range is a 40, my reading was 256. Clinically speaking this is a stage 3, with stage 5 being the highest. Long story short, you can't (you shouldn't; we're thinking about it >> hence the "la-la land") get chemo because that can permanently damage the liver. Soooo...they set me up to get an MRI Monday evening to see if the cancer has spread to the liver. Results from the MRI revealed no spread to the liver, but, we still don't know why the numbers are so high. I've got an appt. tomorrow morning to see a "liver dude". We'll see if he can figure it out. Needless to say, this is very frustrating. I need the chemo to kill the cancer. I can't (shouldn't; we're not sure) take the chemo if it potentially whacks my liver. I feel like I'm on a see-saw. I've heard the words "potentially fatal" so many times now that I don't get that adrenaline rush like I used to. I feel numb at times...

Keep me in your prayers and hopefully God will reveal His plans for me soon. At this point, I'm hovering 30,000 feet over the virtual airport and I can't get clearance to land. Suspense, in a word.

FYI, I've created an online blog to journal my journey. The link is below. You'll find all my updates that have been sent out as emails, plus a few miscellaneous updates that I did on the blog only. Feel free to share this with friends/family/acquaintances. There are also a couple of pictures of the family, including Dumb and Dumber, a.k.a., Mitzy and Daisy the pugs.

Till next time...Brian.
Visit my online blog...http://briansjourney.blogspot.com/